I am weary with my moaning;
every night I flood my bed with tears;
I drench my couch with my weeping.
Psalm 6:6
Reading through the Psalms it is amazing to me how relatable David can be. He was a lowly shepherd boy, turned warrior, turned King. He was a musician and poet, but most importantly he was human like you and me.
David went through good times and bad. He fell into temptation, he sinned, he grieved, he worshipped, and sang. He found his strength in going to the Lord, He found His comfort in prayer, and he was never fearful of bringing his concerns, desires, and wishes to the Most Holy God.
Weary in the Moment
I don’t know about you, but I know I can be a complainer. At times in my life, I have brought more discontent, griping and moaning, to the Lord rather than my praise and thanksgiving.
I have emptied my heart at God’s feet over my disappointments and frustrations. I have woken in the morning my eyes still red and raw over the tears I soaked my pillow with the night before.
I have even gotten angry with the Lord. I have told him how I have felt forsaken, lost, and alone when His word claims He is always with me.
It is at these times that I feel closest to the Lord. Only moments before I felt alone and forgotten and yet as my tears slip down my cheeks and my sobs break from the prison of my lips I can almost feel Jesus in the bed beside me.
His comfort is real, and He does listen. I may not get the answers I want or even an answer at all for a while, but I know in the act of bringing God my heart I end up growing closer to Him. As the dawn breaks the still and heavy darkness I know rejoicing anew can come in the morning.
Prayer
Lord God, I know that lately, I have come to you more to complain than to praise. Lord thank you for allowing me to come to you. Thank You for the peace you give me even in my darkest moment. O Father God, I am weary of my own frustration. I give it all to you. Change my heart Lord, separate me from my wretchedness, and open my eyes to see the blessings you give each day. Lord you are my refuge and my peace please help me to love as you love, and give me the patience to wait on your timing for my life. In Jesus’ Holy and Powerful Name I pray. Amen.
